It's over.

The girl that I've been waiting for 5 years friendzoned me. I don't even know anymore. "Feelings changed" she said. What did I think was gonna happen? That she'd actually want to stay with me? It's hopeless.

All of my efforts are never enough. I'm gonna need some time to heal. 


"You know what sucks? Realizing that everything you believe in is complete and utter bullshit." - Tom Hansen 

#np Kodaline - All I Want

Why does things have to change? Is it because of me? Are you giving up on me? 
We used to be so close. Sigh.







I know it's still too early to say this but I really hope you're the one.

Man Of Steel

Salam people. So today we watched Man Of Steel. It was superb!! Like really, really, REALLY awesome! Especially the fighting scenes. Hands down. Just like what I expected it to be. It's nothing like any typical Superhero movies. Although I'm not much of a Superman fan, but this movie might be the best Superhero movie ever made! Henry Cavill executed his role as the Superman really well. This movie is a proof of how awesomely awesome Superman is! 

To me, one of the saddest part in the movie is when Clark Kent's father died in the storm/tornado. He can do nothing but watch his father got sucked into the tornado. At first, Clark tried to save him, but Jonathan Kent (his father) refused any help from him because he didn't want anybody to know about the superpower abilities that Clark possesses. I actually cried at that part T.T 

Alright, enough with spoilers. I will definitely going to watch this movie again. Just can't get enough of it. Imma give it 9/10 for Man Of Steel. Well done Zack Snyder! 

" It's not an S. On my world it means hope. " - Kal-El

Lifeless.

So I guess I'm gonna be home for another month. And more 'menganggur'. It's okay, be patient Ben. Allah S.W.T has better plans for you. He is the best of planners after all right? 

I miss the way things used to be.

#np Maher Zain - Thank you Allah.

Alhamdulillah for today. Well, You answered my prayer Ya Allah. I can finally drive legally. Huzzah! :D 
Today was definitely a good day for me. 

#np SafetySuit - Never Stop

Love. What is love? Some sort of feelings? Wonderful feelings? If you ask me, I do believe in love. And I still remember the first time I saw her. The first time I experienced love at first sight. I was never the 'romantic' kind of guy until I met her. I don't know how to say this but as cliché as love at first sight may sound, it really is an experience of a lifetime. 

I was 13 years old when I met her. Just a little boy, hanging with my friends at Afiq's. 
(It was his open house)

His house was so crowded. Full of people. Many new faces. As I scanned around the living room, I saw a group of girls sitting in the corner and then my eyes saw this one girl. Yes, she caught my eyes. Then I stopped like literally. Barely did I see her face for a few seconds and my world stopped for a moment there. Everything blurred for a while but her beautiful face. That moment, I felt this strange feelings inside me. It was like a new emotion that I've never experienced before. I couldn't look at her in the eye. I just had to look away. My stomach felt weird, I guess that's why people call it butterflies in stomach? I don't know. My heart was beating so fast. At the same time, I was on cloud nine. My body felt very light, like I could float around or something. She was anything but ordinary.

                                                  

                                                   Well that my friend, is what I call 'Love'. 

Anyway, this is just my experience. Sorry for the cheesiness in this post. 

P's : It has been 5 years since that day. Me and her are currently best friends right now. 

       And the thing is, I'm still truly, madly, deeply, in love with her.

#np The Drums - By The Water

Salam, so as you all know, my friends have started their studies. And me? I'm still stuck here at home. Man I don't wanna 'menganggur' anymore. You guys can take some of my grapes, I've got a lot of them.